In Transition

May 21, 2015 at 7:05 pm

I should be working on my Yoga Teacher Training exam and certification packet, but instead I’ve been looking at homes online. And now here I am blogging. We found out that we’ll have to move this summer. 2015 just keeps getting more and more interesting. I feel like everything about my world right now is “in transition.”

2013-06-12 03.49.40 pmI’m finishing up teacher training. Hallelujah. I’m adjusting to a surprise pregnancy. I’m transitioning through some unwelcome anxiety flare-ups and medication dosage adaptations. I’m remembering to take my own advice about minimizing morning sickness (thank you, cucumbers and magnesium). We’re getting geared-up to move. And I’m transitioning to a new prenatal care provider.

Yeah… switching to a new midwife. With my anxiety struggles and the minor chance of difficulties for the baby because of my medication, I had a strong feeling that I couldn’t do another home birth. If only for my anxiety’s sake, I felt it was best to know I would be much closer to a hospital. Instead, I have chosen to give birth at Blossom Birth Center, located across the street from Phoenix Children’s Hospital and five minutes down the street from St. Joseph’s Hospital. In addition, one of the care providers on staff is an OB, and hospital transfers are smooth and seamless because of their strong relationships with doctors and hospital staff. Also, I’ve done hospital births and home births, but I’ve never done a birth center… might as well give it a try.

Another reason I chose Blossom is because I am already acquainted with Mary Langlois, co-owner of the birth center. I met her during my third pregnancy and attended a doula training she taught in 2009. Mary is a wonderful midwife and mother of eleven children. So I knew she wouldn’t bat an eye at a surprise fifth baby. Mary and I have been facebook friends for a long time, and loving each other from afar ever since we met. If I was going to switch providers, I felt better about switching to someone I already knew and loved. Here’s a picture of us at my doula training six years ago…


A birth center would likely have been too expensive for us in my previous births (and I don’t think there were any in Phoenix when we moved here), but for the first time in a long time, we won’t have to pay out of pocket. Assuming everything works out the way we expect, our healthshare should provide $4000 for midwifery services, making this one of our most affordable births yet. That relieves a lot of stress for sure.

In addition, Mary suggested I establish care with a doctor she loves who specializes in pregnancy and postpartum mental health challenges to help me with medication and counseling, if needed. I am working on setting up an appointment with her soon. I think with all of the support and care of these women and my family and friends, my baby and I will be in very good hands.

But everything still feels very up in the air. I have no idea how my mental state will be tomorrow or next week. I have no idea where we will be living in three months. I have no idea about a lot of things. All I know for sure right now is that I have an exam to turn in on Sunday, and I should probably focus on that first. Sigh. Off to work.