Based on my previous births, this baby is very likely to arrive sometime within the next five days! I’m trying (often unsuccessfully) to keep my fears and worries at bay. Going to bed last night (and the previous night) was especially anxiety-provoking. Two out of three of my labors have started at 12:30 in the middle of the night, and my last labor happened in the evening. It seems like my body just prefers to labor at night. So going to bed also means the prospect of waking up to broken water or contractions.
Last night Ax had to soothe, talk, coax, and hold me to sleep. I don’t think I could count how many times he uttered the words, “Everything is going to be fine,” between 10:30 and 11:30 p.m. I love that man. I think I’ll probably have to re-read the words of the blessing he gave me a couple of nights ago multiple times a day until I give birth. And the words of the scripture that came to my mind immediately after that blessing:
“Let not your heart be troubled,
neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:27)
I could use your prayers, friends!