But there is beauty in it

July 10, 2014 at 4:16 pm

Yesterday my mom, sister, and husband helped me with a project. It is a binder full of all of the cards, emails, and messages of encouragement I have received from my people in the past few months, some of whom I’ve known for years and some of whom I haven’t yet met in this life. It also has uplifting quotes, scriptures, and pictures from Pinterest. I plan to add more and more to it as I receive them.


After my dad got home from work, I showed him what we had made and read him some of the letters, and I wept as I recognized that it was only through my agony (and my willingness to be open and honest about my need for support) that those beautiful words and messages had come to me. My suffering has brought out the best in the people who love me. My suffering has given me a rare opportunity to see just how valued, loved, and needed I am. My suffering has given me something breathtakingly beautiful. I will treasure these gifts for the rest of my life.

A small sampling of the encouraging words I have been blessed to receive:

  • We are all cheering you on from around the globe and have faith in your success.
  • I wish I knew the perfect thing to say to you to help you get through this time in your life. All I can say is that you are an inspiration to me. I have seen you struggle, and I know that you will make it through.
  • I love you and I know that you are strong beyond measure! You will be well again, and the light you will see again will be worth the labor.
  • Remember that the light shines in the darkness and the darkness does not overcome it. Just a tiny light can brighten a whole room. You have lots more than that amount of light in you.
  • You can do this. You are doing this. You are divine, and your legacy will always be that of your courage and heart. Always.
  • You have a heart of gold. I know you can make it through this, I just wish you didn’t have to. I love you.
  • I want you to know how valued your information, research, raw and honest insights… how valuable all of it has been in my life, and I consider that a blessing and tender mercy of His love when I needed it most.

Thank you, my friends, for painting a beautiful masterpiece on the canvas of my suffering.